srsly, must things be so hard?
and to top things off, blogger AND fb is screwed on my comp D:

hands down, this year's Nat Day was the worst of my four years.
the whole idea of having it in the parade square is stoopid. and everything was so messed up and there was no atmosphere. it was so sad.

BUT, fiqah, you did an AWESOME job modelling, and we're all very proud of you (:

ahh wells.
never been this miserable before i think.
got home at like what? 1.20.
then annae was watching first daughter, so decided to join him, then he had to go leave.
so mummy and i continued watching it.
and one part was so...sad. ha! i was like crying and crying and hoping that mummy wouldnt see. ah.

i've been thinking. that's a bad thing.
and about the class.
where did all the love go? huh? i dont even know, was it even there to begin with?
went up to my room to think alone. and i realised that i really shouldnt have agreed to be chair. as in hm, i think i'm glad that people actually thought i can make it. but i think i'm super incapable of doing anything. and i know at least two other people who wouldve done a much better job. and i think the class got worst this year.
disappointing people sucks? but maybe, just maybe, things can get better?
seems largely impossible huh.
and i've realised its possible to be surrounded by people and still feel alone. hmm.
the larger the clique [not click] the harder it gets.
and i dont know, but this class just feels soo diff from sec 1 and 2.
and, i think its just me. cos i know some people think the class this year got better.
REALLY depends on which POV you're looking at.
poop.

but you know what the problem is?
ME.
yupp, i'm just so weird. i have all this expectations and all and then i feel like poop in the end.
mummy came to talk to me.
feel lots better now(:
LOVE MY MUMMY TO BITS AND PIECES AND I THANK GOD FOR SUCH AN AWESOME, LOVING, FABB MOMMA :DD

OH WELLS.
so then.
sch starts on tues.
great.
let's see what i manage to do till then.

"You're always there, for me and with me"
Thank You Daddy God, for being my never wavering source of strength, support, love and HELP :D
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